Monday, March 21, 2011

Random Thoughts

I've had a couple of tough days.  The pain is back in full force and I sometimes wonder if I will ever know a day without it? I'm tired of fighting the pain, tired of having the pain dictate what I can and cannot do in my life. Mostly, I'm tired.  Taking the pain pills makes me exhausted.  Without them, though, I'm in so much pain, I can't function.  I know that, "To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven" Ecclesiastes 3:1 and this is my season of pain.  However, I also know that this season can be a season of Spiritual growth, of growing closer to God, of writing, of Bible study, and of just being in rest.  I have to keep my eyes on the Lord or I will, quite literally, go crazy.  How wonderful that "Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever." Hebrews 13:8 and that I can depend on Him to see me through.  I get sad sometimes because I can't go to church or to my Bible study and it can feel very isolating, however, the truth is, Jesus is with me.  I am not alone because whether I am sitting in a church building or sitting in my chair at home, Jesus is there.  I can pursue Jesus here and be even more fulfilled because that really is what sustains me.  Sometimes when I'm not going through battles, it's easier to be lazy about my pursuit of Jesus but while in the battle, I want and I need the Lord of all to lead me and show me the way.  There truly is a purpose to what I'm going through.

I have been working on my cross stitch again.  I started a project last year called, "He is Not Here, He has Risen".  It's a beautiful piece and I am hoping that I'll have it done in time for Easter.  It's a beautiful reminder of the fact that our Lord lives! I stitch a bit and then rest.  It makes me really tired sometimes and I think it's the rhythm of the stitching and the pills (again, with the pills).  Yesterday, I actually fell asleep, needle in hand, and woke up wondering what in the world was going on.  LOL  I lead such an exciting life!

It's turned cold here again which makes me very sad because our fruit trees have buds on them.  In all the years we've had these fruit trees, we have never had fruit.  I'm hoping we don't get a hard freeze tonight, but listening to the wind blow outside, I have a feeling we definitely will.

I didn't cook today.  I did put a turkey breast in the oven yesterday and then made stove-top stuffing and frozen green beans.  It was a super easy meal and that's about all I was able to do.  Thank goodness, we had enough left overs that I didn't feel guilty about not cooking today. 

I hope you have a very blessed Monday!!

God bless you - Julie


  1. Blessings and Hugs sorry for your pain. I am praying for you and I know the Lord is building up wonderful strong spiritual the Lady #1 in my post last week(the weed post)...she is also the lady with the pink boa will shine like she does for His glory.
    Thanks for stopping by and commenting and I am praying for you!!

  2. Julie I'm sending my hugs and love through this computer...can you feel them, they get tighter as I recall your post today XXXXX. Let me tell you that you are already blessing someone right now. Let me explain.

    I am a baby (as my mother says) in my Christian faith. Sometimes I fall and wonder if I'll ever get back up. I doubt myself and sometimes feel like it is too difficult, as if it would just be easier to do whatever I want. However, when I read blogs like yours I can truly see what it means to bear a cross and to not give up. It shows me that I can do this. You give me strenght and hope. You are TRULY blessing with your blog. So please just know that.

    I pray that you are feeling better soon so that you can do all the things that you want to do. I appreciate you soooo much for taking interest in my blog. I definitely want to keep in touch with you and know how you are doing.
    (((lots of hugs)))
    Claudea from Mama Know Best

  3. Sorry.. I am praying for you (as always).


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