Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Reflections

 
I think one of the hardest things for me in dealing with this pain I'm in is the fact that I'm not able to do my decorating that I like to do.  It's December 6th and I still don't have a single Christmas thing out, and that includes my tree.  In the past, it wasn't unusual for me to put up my tree for my birthday (early November) and enjoy the decorations for two  months.  It grieves my heart that I have to give up so much.  My family would be more than happy to get things out for me, but both my sons are in the midst of finals and I wouldn't dream of bothering them.  My husband would be happy to help me but he can only do so much.  In reality, this shouldn't be a big deal for me, but it is and a reminder of how much my life has changed.  It makes me sad.  
I've been having really horrible pain again and having a hard time even getting comfortable.  It really just stinks and, while I don't want to use my blog to complain, it is a fact of my life right now and something I need to express.  On the up side, I have finally been getting my knee shots and have had two so far with another one to three to go, depending on what I need.  I have a new doctor doing the shots and it's like night and day compared to my other doctor.  My pain doctor is doing my shots now and his compassion and gentleness is just such a huge contrast to my former doctor.  These shots are going much better.  

It snowed like crazy here over the weekend and there were some times during the day that you couldn't see past two or three feet out the window.  It was like a blizzard out there.  It also stayed cold enough that the snow was on the ground for several days instead of just melting off in a day.  I am happy to report that today it did melt a lot and got a lot warmer out.  I'm glad I didn't have to get out in that horrible snow storm!

We looked out the window the other day to see a huge, huge red-tailed hawk.  It was so large that I've been keeping a close eye on my little Yorkie when she goes out.  She's about the size of a small rabbit so it would be nothing for that hawk to carry her off.  It just gives me chills to even think about this and you can bet we are all keeping an eye on her!

Many blessings - Julie

4 comments:

  1. It must be so hard. I was only sick with a chest cold and I was having trouble getting my Christmas things out, but I had the help of a gung-ho daughter, too. I will pray that you find comfort and peace through this season.

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  2. (((hugs))) I continually pray for you and the wisdom of your doctors. I know that chronic pain is very draining.

    Yikes on the hawk! We have one lingering around from time-to-time and I always worry about our little dogs and chickens.

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  3. Hi Julie! I just wanted to stop by and say thank you for visiting my blog. I am sorry to hear about your chronic pain. It must be so very difficult, especially with the pressure of the holidays. Don't be too hard on yourself. Take care, Heather

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