Monday, February 20, 2012

The Lord is in Control

I am so thankful for the comments, emails, and messages that I received during my time away.  Most of all, I'm very thankful for your prayers for my husband and the situation we have once again been faced with.  I feel strong enough to share with you what has transpired and I know that the Lord has been with us again as He provides what we need to go forward. 

First of all, some background for those of you who are newer readers.  In 2006, my husband was diagnosed with prostate cancer.  He had the prostate removed and they felt confident that they did get all the cancer.  For the past, almost 6 years, his psi levels (which is what they look at to monitor the prostate, even when it's gone, as they are looking at the cells) have been at 0.  Then suddenly last Fall, his levels started to slowly go up.  The doctor wasn't real concerned about this so neither were we. However, my husband had a blood test in January and on February 2, the doctor called to tell my husband that his levels had gone up significantly and that the cancer was, indeed, back.  To say I was shocked is an understatement.  I knew the levels had been slowly creeping up but I don't know if I just couldn't face it, or if I really thought all was okay.

Since the diagnosis, we've been to see my husbands doctor who ordered tests to check that the cancer hasn't gone into the bones (obviously, this is our greatest fear) and another test to see exactly where the prostate cancer is.  Since we are talking about cells here, they can be in other areas of the body.  My husband has had a phobia about being in tight places ever since his open heart surgery (we've since learned that this is quite common) so even doing scans where he has to have a machine come over his face, even for a little while, is quite hard for him.  We talked to the doctor about this and he gave my husband some pills to help calm him down and when we went last Friday for the scans, my husband was able to get through it just fine.  This was truly an answer to prayer because we knew we couldn't go forward with treatment without the results from the test.  We will be going to see the doctor on Wednesday afternoon to get the results of these tests and I am asking, once again, for prayer.  Please pray that the cancer has not gone into the bones.  If  the cancer has not gone to the bones, they will then do radiation to eradicate that horrible cancer.

Once again, we face a situation where we have no control, however, we know that the Lord is indeed in control and sits on His throne and cares about this.  He holds us under His wings and gives us the peace that only He can give. I'm thankful that we can turn to the Lord.  We would be going through this with or without Him, but with Jesus, there is hope and an understanding that there is a purpose to everything.

Tomorrow, I get another back injection and I'm hoping that, once again, it gives me a bit of pain relief.  I had some bad pain days after learning of my husband's diagnosis and I'm sure a lot of it was stress.  The past few days, since the scan, I've been feeling a bit better and have been able to do some things around my house.  Saturday was a bit of a bust, though, as I slept off and on all day.  I think it was in reaction to getting through the scans after worrying about that for 2 weeks.  Yesterday, though, I had a burst of energy and I got my laundry done, my kitchen cleaned, dinner made and cleaned up a little where I could.  Today, I'm feeling a little tired, but definitely better than the last two weeks and am trying to get back into a routine.

I've missed my Bible study for the past two weeks as I just didn't feel that good but this week, I'm hoping to be back to my study and my prayer meeting as I really miss them when I can't go.  I'm a wee bit behind in my study so need to get going on that today.

Thank you, again, dear friends for your prayers and sweet messages.  Such a soothing balm to my Spirit when I hear from you and to know that you are praying.

God bless you - Julie    


  1. Wow Julie, the Lord is sure pruning your faith. I pray that your joy and strength will come from Him and that His peace will consume you as He takes you through this storm. Praying.

  2. I just had a time of prayer for you and your husband just now...

  3. (((hugs)))

    praying for you and your husband, julie.

  4. Thank you for the update, Julie. I've been checking your blog every day since you first posted about your husband's health issue, anxious to hear more news. I have been praying for you and for him, and I will continue to do so.

  5. I pray for you daily and will continue to lift you both up in prayer.


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