Saturday, April 19, 2014

Tears Yet Joy

There have been a lot of tears shed here. Shed over the illness of my beloved, Holly.

Shed over the exhaustion I feel every moment of every day. Shed over the pain I'm still experiencing with my surgeries.

I hold dear to my heart Psalm 30:5...that weeping will remain for a night but rejoicing comes in the morning. In other words, this too shall pass, and my Savior will be holding my hand and comforting me through all this as He refines me for His purpose.

Holly is now just eating rice and fresh, baked chicken. I am trying to help her by giving her easily digestible foods. She amazed me yesterday by playing with a toy with me and I took a video of it so I'll have it. There she was, wearing her cone, playing with a duck the same size as her! These are the joyous moments I hang onto. She doesn't seem to be really sick or anything - if she were, I would be making a different decision, but it is hard to see all those tumors growing on her tummy and knowing her time is short with me. I treasure each and every moment with her. Okay, enough of this or I'll be crying my eyes out again....

I did crochet today! It was so wonderful to pick up a hook again and work on something. I'm doing another prayer shawl for myself and will post a picture as soon as I have more than a few rows done.

I laid down yesterday to take a nap because I was hoping to go to Good Friday services, but I ended up being so exhausted and feeling so sick I slept for 3 hours! I knew I wouldn't be able to go when I got home from my therapy, but I so wanted to and I did try. However, God knows my heart is with Him and I am so thankful for what Jesus did for me. It is because of Him that I can go on.

Blessings - Julie


  1. A Blessed Easter to you all! I am sorry things are progressing so much with Holly. Keep on resting. I am praying.

  2. Loving you, and praying for you.


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