Running after Jesus

It's been a difficult three days for me - I had been fighting a bladder/kidney infection and then on Saturday, I woke up with Diverticulitis. Bleah. :( I haven't done much at all over the weekend except sleep, watch TV and occasionally get on the computer. I have absolutely NO energy. I'm going to be so glad to get a call into my doctor tomorrow and get some antibiotics for this. I didn't want to go to the emergency room unless it got really horrible. Thank goodness it didn't get to that point.

The emergency room did see one of our family members this weekend. My mother-in-law had been moaning and groaning around here for a few days. When we suggested she needed to go to the doctor, she got very upset. We could tell that she was in pain from something, but we didn't know from what. Finally, Saturday evening she said she wanted to go to the emergency room. Hubby and older son took her and they didn't find anything wrong other than some arthritis in her spine. She's 85 years old, so that's not surprising. I guess when she got there, she took the opportunity to bother everyone and talk to everyone. I don't think the nurses and doctors took her seriously because she was acting like there really wasn't anything wrong. We're not sure what that was all about but in any case, they gave her one pain pill, a prescription for more and she seems to be better this evening. The unfortunate thing is that they were there for over 6 hours and hubby was just exhausted and still seems to be today - 2 days later. I worry about him and all the responsibilities that he has on him. He always looks tired and I know all this stress is not good for him.

I have been feeling a longing in my Spirit for more of Jesus. I know that through all these things we have been going through for so long are "for my good and His glory". I just want to be living the life that the Lord is calling me to live and to be obedient to Him. I am feeling rather down on myself this evening because I felt so bad over the weekend, I didn't work on my Bible studies at all and, while I did pray, it wasn't as much as I would have liked for it to be. I feel that I need to be more disciplined, even when I don't feel good, to pursue more of Jesus. As my blog title says, I want more of Him and less of me. I'm just so thankful that His grace never runs out and that He knows my heart desire to have Him as the center of my life. I will keep running after Him - I'm just so thankful that He lets me catch Him. :)

God bless you - Julie