Monday, June 16, 2014

Following God's Plan!

I really don't know how I would get through everything that I've been through in the (almost) six months without God. I can guess because I used to walk in my own strength, and quite frankly, I was a huge worrier and just would obsess about what "could happen". No more. I have such trust in the Lord, that I can rest my weary self in His arms and just deal with what happens moment by moment.

I'm not going to say that I'm just this "happy go lucky" girl but I'm not depressed or whiny either. I just have a calmness that only the Holy Spirit can give. I think the biggest issue I'm having right now is that I'm so tired! I'm having to get up early (for me) to do my push meds and IV's and then I have to do them again at night. I start them at 9:30, AM and PM, but the IV drip takes over 2 hours to finish, so I go to bed late and then have to get up and start them again. This is all new to me, but I'm getting it down and have a routine now.

Here's the biggest change I've seen in myself. I am realizing it's okay to do the things I want to do and I don't have to do all the things I don't. Most of my life, I've done things others have expected of me or demanded of me and I'm totally done with that - like toast.  I'm so tired of doing things that I don't want to do anymore. I'm realizing that if I had died, I wouldn't have done so many things I really wanted to do because I was so busy pleasing others or doing things that I thought I *should* do. How incredibly stupid!

I'm not talking about the every day things that we all have to do that we're not crazy about - like cleaning the kitchen or bathrooms. Those things are a must to live decently and healthy, in my opinion. I'm talking about working at something you hate or doing something you despise because someone else expects you to do it. Or giving up dreams because you don't think you can do it or your scared. Or no one in your life believes you can do it. What gives anyone the right to tell us our dreams are dumb or what we want to do is not worthwhile or right for us?

I'm making a conscience effort to let certain things go that I don't want to do anymore. I'm really figuring out what it is I want out of life and I'm going for it! I can't do a lot right now, but I can definitely plan. I'm writing down things that are important to me like getting deeper into my Bible and really understanding what God's Word means. What it means for my life. What God is telling me through His Word. Writing more, but what I want to write about. Painting and designing, but what I want to paint and design. What God puts on my heart - what His will is. That's what I want.

It feels so good to realize I can make these choices. It's a freedom I've never felt before because I'm finally realizing that it's best to follow God's plan. Not someone else's plan -  not my own plan - but God's plan. He is speaking through the Holy Spirit, to my heart, and there's nothing as beautiful or as glorious as knowing that God put certain things on my heart because He made me special and unique, just like He did you. Following His plan is the perfect plan and that's exactly what I'm going to do!

Blessings - Julie


  1. What an uplifting, inspirational post Julie. Thank you.♥

  2. Awesome post, bless you my friend.


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