Saturday, September 7, 2013

Sunday Thoughts

I know I have been very quiet here on the blog. I have been struggling with some issues and trying to work things out in my mind and heart about them. I think the Lord is doing a lot of work in my heart and forcing me to take an honest look at myself. 

I have been dealing with pain issues and other health issues for the better part of 6 years now. I have made great head way in some areas and in other areas, not. It's those "not" areas that I struggle with. I will have days where I feel better (like yesterday) and I am able to ignore my problems and focus on the tasks at hand. Other days, I just kind of give up. It seems too hard and I easily give into my miseries. 

I'm afraid I'm also struggling with looking to the past too much. It's really my greatest weakness (sin) and I know the Lord is really working on me about this. I look back and remember all the things I used to be able to do and it grieves me. I allow the past to control my thoughts and feelings now and it's wrong. The Lord tells us, "Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead..." Philippians 3:13 and "Jesus said to him, “No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God.” - Luke 9:62  
Plus, we all know what happened to Lot's wife when she looked back! 

I'm understanding that I must do what I do for the Lord. Even when I don't feel like it, if I say to myself, "I'm doing this for the Lord", it takes on a whole new meaning for me. Laundry, cooking dinner, vacuuming can all take on a different meaning when I tell myself I'm doing it for Jesus. I may only be able to do it in small spurts, but I'm still doing it! 

This includes my time with the Lord. Sometimes it's so easy to nap or sit in front of the television set because I'm so exhausted, but it's exactly what I need when I am exhausted. Time spent with the Lord refreshes and rejuvenates like nothing else. It's just the doing it. 

Yes, I'm still having health issues that are keeping me home for the most part, but I want to make sure I'm taking care of my home and family that the Lord has blessed me with. Little by little, it gets done and since my children aren't small any longer, it's much easier to care for my home. No toys lying about and helpful hands abound! 

The Lord is so precious and I don't want to neglect Him anymore than I would my family. He is my family and deserves my best - whatever that best is at the time. He understands what I'm going through physically, but I know that I can do better for Him because He deserves whatever my best is!

Have a wonderful Lord's day!

Many blessings - Julie


  1. Hi Julie, I pray you would be able to settle your issues with the Lord and take time to listen to His leading. I also haven't been feeling very well lately. I pray for strength to be restored to my best of health. Have a blessed Sunday!

  2. Great post Julie. I constantly have to remind myself to turn to the Lord.

  3. A lovely post Julie.
    Wishing you a good week x


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